I am Ruby

nature woman

Chapter 28 : It Didn’t Happen…

I’ve been so patient, and I haven’t lied to my family when I have said that the delay doesn’t bother me as much I imagine it is bothering Twat Face.  I would think that as much as he hates the process, he just wants it over.

happy woman

Chapter 26 : Cheers Nan

If someone were to mention that ‘Sophie’s Choice’ was on, she would declare her disinterest, stating that she had lived it, so didn’t need to watch it.

adventure woman

Chapter 25 : Time For An Adventure

I have spent so much time just surviving, that I can’t remember the last time that I really lived.  As the New Year came around, I woke up feeling a little optimistic.  I had unusually had a good night sleep, I felt loved, cosy, comfortable, but mostly brave.  Being such a procrastinator lately, I couldn’t […]

happy new year

Chapter 23 : Happy New Year

I have just spent my first Christmas and New Years with my family since I was 17 years old.  That was a lot of years ago.  I’ve had a couple here and there with my son, but never just the four of us.  I am going in to the New Year full of hope, that […]

Depression anxiety

Chapter 22 : In Limbo..

This left me feeling extremely sensitive, not being able to shout it from the rooftops, the elation was stifled and suppressed and that has filled me with emotion that I don’t know what to do with.  What if something goes wrong?  What if they can’t get the final pieces of evidence that they require? What if??????

Procrastination

Chapter 21 : Procrastination

The less I do, the less I want to do, the less I want to do, the less I do. I feel like my brain is slowly stopping, and I can’t do anything about it.

sad anxiety woman

Chapter 20 : If in Doubt Do Nowt!

Explaining Anxiety and depression is never easy. This maybe because as much as people suffering want you to understand, they don’t have the emotional capacity at that time to explain it to you.

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Chapter 19 : Emergence

Back in Chapter 7 : The Damage Done, I told you about the atrocious tattoos that I got, and my terrible, illogical reasons for getting them.